I've battled with my weight since my early teens. Actually I knew I was the chubby kid as early as second grade. I felt like I didn't have many friends because I was chubby, and I felt like boys didn't like me because I was chubby. I was even called FAT by kids in school. When I went into the seventh grade, things got worse for me. Kids were so mean and they would say the meanest things to me. All because I wasn't a perfect size 2. By the summer before eighth grade I took matters in my own hands and developed an eating disorder. About the time eighth grade came around I was so excited to go to school because I had lost so much weight and was feeling skinny. The excitement only lasted for a day. By the next day, mean girls were spreading rumors about me. They were saying I did drugs to lose all my weight. These mean girls couldn't let me just be skinny, they had to take it to a whole new level.
As my schools years went on, I kept up this eating disorder to stay thin. Finally in eleventh grade I learned about exercising. I took a step class and fell in love with it. My coach inspired me so much she was the best to me. She spent extra time with me and really tried to drill the idea of exercising and importance of eating. She also told me the methods I was taking to lose weight were not healthy. This worked for awhile, but over time I developed my bad habits again.
After I gave birth to my son I was heavy for some time and tried to lose weight the wrong way...once again. While trying to raise a baby and being a new bride I couldn't get a hold of my weight. My solution was if I don't have time to workout I will eat two times a day. Well that will only work for so long, then you're stuck and you're a prisoner to your own body. By the grace of God my husband has really helped me get over a lot of my views of myself and help me not be afraid of food! My dear BFF has helped more in the recent years. I sometimes still fall into a dark place and she always picks me up. Don't get me wrong I still have bad days and still think I'm the chubbiest person in the room.
We all have insecurities and we've all judge someone without knowing their story. Please know I will share pictures of myself, I will share my journey, I will share stories with you, I will give you my advice, I'll answer all your questions and it will be coming from a good place. Ever since high school, I knew I would have a job where I would be able to help people with their weight loss journeys. From the bottom of my hearth, I love helping people and never want anyone to feel the way I did growing up. It's not easy sharing my story, but I hope it helps someone reading my post.
What's your story??
