Day 69 of P90X3 and I Got the Blues

Some days I don't feel good enough or thin enough. Today is one of those days. I can't seem to like me today. I've been having a craving problem lately with desserts. It's been going on for a few months now. I can say it started around the same time my honey deployed. He's my rock and knows how to make me feel better when ever I'm down. With him not being home he can't fix me. If you read my first blog you know I still have set backs and days where I don't really like the way I look. 

I work out so hard and stay on track, but I can be my biggest sabtoger!(I made this word up) This is what goes on in my head sometimes…Let's say I make my goal weight, you'd think I'd be happy, right? Well I think I don't want this because then I'll have to maintain it and anything more on the scale is just not OKAY! This is when sabotaging comes in play. So even though on the outside I might look perfect to others, I'm not and I'm just as human as you are. 

Tomorrow I'll get back on the saddle and hope the day goes better! 

Thank you for reading, 

Sandra Ballester